When God Speaks

Isn't it crazy how God speaks to us when in way that we least expect it?The past month or so, God has really been speaking to me. I was at a point where I didn't think that I was able to be used for Him and that He was just not interested in me. He soon pointed out to me that it was ME that wasn't interested, and ME that was running from him. I began to read the Word and to just be in constant prayer and realized how much God can use you, and begin to change you from within.I have realized how important it is to read the Word. I have had countless times in the past month or so, where I have had the right verse in my head at the right time, and it's be FANTASTIC!!

I have also been convicted of many things. One of these things has been realizing what I put into my mind. I have for so long just read whatever seemed interesting to me. I realized that it's true, what you put INTO your mind is what comes out. That has been my conviction, and I have really been praying about what it is I read. And even the music that I listen to. As everyone who knows me, knows that I am totally and irrevocably passionate about music. And so many times I find myself singing songs that would not be glorifying to the Lord, so I have been trying to not do that as part of my obedience to the Lord. I love the songs "Beloved" and "By Your Side" both of which are by Tenth Avenue North. They bring me to tears, every time I hear these songs. If you haven't heard these songs, you totally NEED TO ... I put them on my sidebar for you all to hear... PLEASE listen to them. And I'm going to make it very easy for you all and write the lyrics to these songs here:

Beloved

Love of my life, look deep in my eyes

There you will find what you need

Give me your life, the lust and the lies

The past you're afraid I might see

You've been running away from me

You're my beloved, lover I'm yours

Death shall not part us, it's you I died for

For better or worse, forever we'll be

Our Love it unites us; and it binds you to me

It's a mystery

Love of my life, look deep in my eyes

There you will find what you need

I'm the giver of life, I'll clothe you in white

My immaculate bride you will be

Oh come running home to me

You're my beloved, lover I'm yours

Death shall not part us, it's you I died for

For better or worse, forever we'll be

Our love unites us, and it binds you to me

Well you've been a mistress, my wife

Chasing lovers, it won't satisfy

Won't you let me make you my bride

You will drink of my lips and you'll taste new life

You're my beloved, lover I'm yours

Death shall not part us, it's you I died for

For better or worse, forever we'll be

Our love it unites us and it binds you t me

It's a mystery

It's a mystery

Megan and I were just talking this morning about how our relationship with God is a marriage, and I LOVE this picture. It makes me feel so loved, so desired and just so wanted. It's great.

By Your Side

Why are you striving these days?

Why are you trying to earn grace?

Why are you crying? Let me lift up your face

Just don’t turn away

Why are you looking for love?

Why are you still searching as if I’m not enough

To where will you go, child?

Tell me where will you run?

To where will you run?

Cause I'll be by your side wherever you fall

In the dead of night whenever you call

And please don't fight these hands that are holding you

Yeah my hands are holding you

Look at these hands, and My side

They swallowed the grave on that night

When I drank the world's sin so I could carry you in

And give you life, I wanna give you life

Cause I'll be by your side, wherever you fall

In the dead of night whenever you call

And please don't fight, these hand that are holding you

My hands are holding you.

Cause I, I love you

I want you to know

That I, I love you

I'll never let you go

Cause I'll be by your side wherever you fall

In the dead of night whenever you call

And please don't fight these hands that are holding you

Yeah My hands are holding you.

God's love is so amazing. I have experienced His grace this summer in ways that I cannot even explain. So many times throughout my life, I have tried to fill that God-shaped hole with different things,different people and finally I think I'm doing it right by giving HIM my all. It's been really hard, because I'm someone who always wants to be in control. I have been convicted day after day about this, because He wants me to allow Him to be in control, and that's hard. Because it means that I am weak, and I have recently just realized how true that is. I AM WEAK!!! But with Christ, I can do all things, because HIS grace is sufficient. But, that's not to say, that all my problems have been solved. I still struggle. I've realized that it's about DAILY and often times MOMENTARILY making that commitment to obey him, and to confess and repent when I screw up. I look in the mirror in the morning, and realize that I can at any point in the day screw up royally. I can make a decision so bad that even my grandchildren or maybe even their grandchildren could suffer for my decision. So I have to ask God constantly "God, give me wisdom"and "God, keep me humble."