no more happiness

I can't believe that in less than 3 days, I will be going back to school. Oh how I hate that place. My summer is almost over!No more fun, No more happiness! Crazy! There were so many things I wanted to do, that I never got to do:
1.) light my clothes on fire and jump off Larwood Bridge
2.) light the tires of my bike on fire and ride it
3.) go to PL, Washington and visit Morgan
4.) go on a road trip with "Freakin Katelyn" , "Freakin Kody","Mogie Pogie" and "Master Bates"
5.) go skydiving with megan
6.) do the gallon challenge with Morgan

As you can see this summer hasn't been all that productive, I don't even know what I did all summer. Which is good, right? That's what summer is for. I love not having to know what day of the week it is.

Naturally, yesterday was my last day at Blue Moon, where I worked. And the last hour and fifteen minutes were weird. I didn't know how I was supposed to feel. I was happy that it was my last day. But sad, knowing that I would have to return to school next week. When I started to think about school, and being in the principles office, and being in detention and suspension, and all that stupid stuff that goes along with school, suddenly seed cleaning didn't sound so bad. And I hated seed cleaning. I was happy for the work, but there is absolutely no "scope for the imagination" in seed cleaning.

Don't get me wrong, I do like my school. So often I make fun of it. But there are plenty of pleasant people there, and it's really small, which makes it nice. I just hate the idea of summer ending... well, you get it.

Today my dad went to Portland with one of his employees for something random. My mom and sisters went to the Oregon State Fair. So it's just me right now at home. And I'm kind of really bored. But, I'm going to watch a Mystery Science Theater on youtube, and maybe take a long walk... I love being home by myself these days. I suppose I could have gone with either my dad or my mom, but I really didn't want to go all the way to P-Town, and I hate walking around at the state fair with my mom and sisters. But mom walks so freaking fast. Not to mention, right now she's kind of upset at me. :)

I'm a working woman!!! WOOO HOOOO!.. (not!)

So the one thing that I really didn't want to happen to ruin my summer was to have my summer free time be obliterated by working. And for about 2 1/2 months things worked out for me. I wasn't working full time, just at the blueberry field and odd jobs for my grandma and stuff. It was great. My summer had been fun. Just lying around doing nothing... that is what summer is for, right?

Way at the beginning of summer when my parents told me to look for a summer job, I was really lazy about it, and I applied at two places. I applied at a nursery, mostly just for fun. I wrote things like that my desired position was like a brain surgeon... stuff like that.The other place I applied was at a grass seed company. As you can tell, I was REALLY bummed when I found out that I didn't get either of the jobs I applied for. I could tell that it was going to be a summer full of reading, swimming, camps and hanging out with my friends. Oh darn. :)

I was expecting my friend from California soon. And I was all excited, because when she comes, well summer is better. We hangout with a ton of people... it's great. But noooo... things couldn't be that way this year... you know why? dDo you care? Probably not, but oh well... the person that didn't hire me at the grass seed company decided that she did want to hire me. Like last week. I had 3 weeks and 2 days until I had to quit for school, but did she care? Of course not. So I have been working at a grass seed company. In case you care, that isn't exactly fun work. Quite honestly, it sucks. I sit in a dark room alone or with a boy or two, one that I wouldn't mind killing, the other I wouldn't mind dating, and I HAND-SIFT and air column seed. All. Day. Long. Yeah, not exactly my dream job. Suddenly getting through high school, and going to college doesn't sound so bad. :)Aaaanyway, so back to my friend from California, she comes up every summer. But this year I didn't get to hang out with her very much. I work from 7:00 am-3:30 pm, but I am in town until my dad leaves his shop. Which puts me at home around 5:00 pm. And by then all I want to do is sleep or read. And I don't stay up late anymore, because I have to be up early. I hate it. I don't get how adults do it. Seriously.

To Shavonne:

If you were a crayon, you'd want to be white,
Which is pretty creative, and totally tight.
I think I'd be red, or purple or blue,
But that isn't quite as exciting as you.
You do much more exciting activities than I
For instance, you like running, and I'd rather die!
I enjoy bridge jumping and taking dumb risks
You do karate, and are good at throwing discs.
Plus you're really funny, and I think you are cool
The only mistake you've made was choosing your school
I'm totally kidding, 'just joshing you'!
I'm sure that U of O is worse than OSU!
But don't be disappointed or embarrassed at all
Cuz at least OSU is good at baseball (hehe)
You think guys are hot with really dark hair,
I won't complain as long as it's there!
We're so different, but so much the same,
Sometimes we're crazy, sometimes we're lame,
Now I know I'll never be lonely
Because you're the cheese to my creamy macaroni

Well, Shavonne, there you have it... I hope you like it! I love you!